Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Anonymous

So last night got this question on my Formspring page.

"Someties you really piss me off. You get everything you want in life. Someone needs a reality check in the worst way."

...Which isn't exactly a question, but it really caught me off guard.
I responded with a short:

"Thanks.
...Noted.
And I'm sorry for pissing you off. And I think I'm pretty sure I know who you are. And I hate that you're mad at me and I don't know how to fix it.
And if you're not who I think you are, I'm sorry regardless."

I have a good idea of who might have asked it, but the truth is I have no clue who it was for sure.

All I can say is, yeah, I do get a lot of things in life that I want. Because I'm spoiled. My family loves to dote on me, and they always have.
But part of the reason that I get so many things in life that I want is because I do what I can to get them.
It's not like I'm a bratty five-year-old throwing a tantrum in the toy store.
It's not like I expect to be given things or have to life opportunities land in my lap.
Growing up, my family was on a strict budget, and I didn't get everything that I wanted. I learned to live with disappointment. I learned that you can't always have Lucky Charms or a trip to McDonald's every day.
Now that I'm older, I know that you can't always get what you want, but if you want something, you should try to go for it.
And for the most part, yeah. It works.
I don't need a reality check. I've had plenty of those in life.
But you have to realize, random stranger, that I probably won't end up as successful as you will. I'm twenty years old, and I have my requirements for my freshman year of college completed, credit-wise. I'm behind in school because all I do is play. You probably have a ten-year plan and are well on your way to having a successful career. Me? I've got acting. And if that fails, well, I'm probably screwed.
I realize that, and I don't need a reality check.
I don't get everything I want in life.
I haven't had a lead role in a play since the eighth grade, and that was probably because my mom was the music director and none of the other girls could really sing.
I'm overweight.
I'm in debt.
I have imperfect skin.
I'm not the brightest lightbulb in the chandelier when it comes to school.
I'm unfocused.

But you know what? I love myself. And I don't need anyone telling me what's wrong with me. I do plenty of that on my own.
I understand that I pissed you off, but you don't have to be so rude about it.
I would appreciate it if you came to me with your concerns and criticisms instead of anonymously posting them on a social networking website. We could talk things through and sort things out, and possibly come to some kind of agreement.

Thanks.

1 comment:

  1. The most important thing you wrote here is "I love myself" That is all you need to say. If this person has so many issues with YOU, it means they have the same issues with THEMSELVES. It is the Shadow. Seeing something in someone else that bothers you is usually your biggest issue. It is the theory of Carl Jung. And BTW, I think you are a very bright bulb in any chandelier. LOVE!

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