DTR.

Alright, so I guess my last blog was kind of an overreaction. More like really an overreaction. Things are just great. Man, I must sound really bipolar. Let's just say, immediately after I posted that last blog, I got on Facebook and changed my status to say "Will someone please just love me?" and he got on there and commented and said, "I love you the mostest out of everyone!! And yes I know that mostest isn't a word!" He then texted me and said, "I love you!" and that just made everything okay.

Here are some pictures from last sunday's adventure voyage to Vegas to see The Lion King. :D







The other night Alex and I had our DTR - "defining the relationship" - talk. It was... stressful. To say the least. I guess the conclusion of the discussion was that, well, there was no conclusion. We decided that for now, we are "dating." Which means, not boyfriend-girlfriend, not dating other people- just each other, hanging out, getting to know each other etc. He said, "It's not a question of whether or not I want to be your boyfriend. I do. It's just... the situation." Here are his reasons:

1. He had just officially broken up with his ex for good about a week before we made out for the first time. He doesn't want to rush into anything, and he wants to make sure he doesn't hurt me. He doesn't want me to be just a rebound.

2. Melissa Erickson. His closest thing to a best friend. She has had a crush on him for a good long while. She knows nothing about our recent development, as it is, and he is worried about how she'll react to him and I suddenly dating.

3. Hannah Davenport. Similar situation as Melissa, but not quite to the same extent.

4. He may or may not be serving a mission in April. (Rip my heart out.) He has never really wanted to go and it's never been a big deal in his family, but now he has the opportunity to turn in his papers in April... and he might just do it. He hasn't decided yet. I mean, I would love for him to serve a mission. It's just crappy timing. I wish I had more time with him.

5. He's busy. A lot. Not alot of time for a girlfriend. I told him it didn't bother me, being as a good 2/3 of my past relationships have been long distance and have been situations where I couldn't see my boyfriend for a good two, three weeks- up to two months- at a time. That shut him up about that.

anyway... go read Seriously, So Blessed!... it's hilarious...

Anywho- that is that. It was about 2:30 AM when we discussed this, and his brain kinda stopped working. We decided that I'd give him some time to think and figure things out, and we'd revisit the subject later, when he was more... alert? relaxed? less, stressed? So I figure once he's finished with Macbeth... maybe I'll bring it up. Or, maybe I won't. It just- GAH! It drives me nuts. We act like we are together. But we're not. And now Evie, dear sweet darling adorable spitfire Evie, who met her boy Kenny a week after the whole Alex thing started, they have been officially together for a good two, maybe three days now. AND IT MAKES ME SO JEALOUS! I WANT ALEX ALL TO MYSELF, GOSH DAMNIT!!!!!!!
Alright. That was my rant.



(....minus the whole marriage thing.)