The Situation

Alright everybody, it's update time!
Spring break has been everything I have always imagined a college spring break would be! We drove to California and had some crazy wet t-shirt parties on the beach... Met alot of hot, buff, tan men and made crazy passionate love to every one of them... Drank alot of fruity alcoholic drinks and danced on a few tables, and I even went to Vegas and married my neighbor's dog!

Alright, alright. No, that's not exactly what this week has been made up of. Mainly, Francini, Evie and I have been having a classic animated movie marathon. So far, we've managed to knock out The Little Mermaid, Hercules, Balto, Aladdin: The Return of Jafar, The Rescuers, Once Upon A Forest, Beauty and the Beast, Anastasia, Happily Ever After... to name a few. We still haven't hit El Dorado, Little Mermaid II: Return to the Sea, The Pebble and the Penguin, Fern Gully, A Goofy Movie or An Extremely Goofy Movie. I've probably eaten half my body weight in Chocolate Creamies and Rocky Road Ice Cream, and I actually went to the gym once this week!
My PMS has been awful. (Okay, I know that PMS comes before the cycle. But I don't know what else to call it. ) I don't think I've ever been in so much menstrual pain in my entire life. Best. Spring Break. Ever. I showered two days ago and found myself in too much pain to want to do anything but just sit. No energy to put on clothing, too much pain to have any motivation to do my hair or makeup... So I took about twelve ibuprofens, settled on a pair of short shorts and a giraffe print tank top, took the towel off of my head and sat in a ball on the couch for a good hour or so waiting for the meds to kick in. So much for my new modesty rule. Oh well, I suppose no one saw me so it doesn't count.

Evie has been, up until tonight, a semi-permanent resident in my apartment since Sunday. I love her and I wish she could just move in with me and live on my couch.

Isn't she a doll? I jacked this picture from her facebook. I just think she's just the bee's knees.

Yesterday was probably the most eventful day of break... Got up, threw my hair back in a ponytail and went with Francini on an adventure to find a pair of tan character shoes for Miss Saigon and to find an old town store called Judd's Store. It's like, an old-fashioned ice-creamery and confectionery. They sell old fashioned candies and classic glass-bottle sodas, antiques, home remedies, jams, jellies, honey... It was pretty incredible. I felt like I was back in the sock-hop era.


After we came home from that, I jump-started Evie's car that was sitting in my parking lot and drove to her work to rescue her. We then went to Alex's and just kinda hung out. He fell asleep on his bed while Evie and Kenny messed around on his computer. I just kinda laid there and watched him sleep for a while... he is so beautiful when he's asleep. Evie went back to work and Kenny, Alex and I went to the mall, but that was boring. So we decided, hey. let's go to the gym. So we went back to Alex's house and the two boys got dressed. We then came back to my apartment so I could get dressed. At this point Evie had gotten off of work and came to meet us at my place. She got dressed and so did Francini, and we all went to the gym for an intense two-hour work out. Afterwards, we went out for pizza. Counter-productive, I know. oh well. The waitress was very amused by the fact that we all were in "situations" instead of "relationships." She said, "Is that what the kids are doing these days??"
We all went our separate ways to go get cleaned up and go to my gay friend Justin's house for a party. We didn't realize, though, that it'd be a party with drinking involved. It was actually rather humorous, seeing people who are usually pretty reserved getting crazy and saying the stupidest things...
"Alexa, I used to not like you at all. I used to hate you. Back when you liked Frank and Frank liked you, because you know why? Because I liked him too. But now I like you! Now I like you alot. I'm glad you're my friend. I'm sorry I hated you. I'm sorry. I love you."
And another friend: "I'm so sorry. I am so sorry. I'm sorry... I'm usually much paler than this."
Justin: "Alexa! Oh my, try this, oh wait you don't drink. But it's so good. And this is my drinking cup. It has fu--ing Jack Skellington on it, and it's fu--ing bad-ass because the inside of the cup has swirls on it. Give me a kiss."
And he's gay. I love him so much. He says he thinks he's bisexual when he's drunk.
Well we ditched the party. It was a little awkward because none of us drink. So we drove a drunk friend home and came back to my apartment to watch Anastasia. The boys didn't leave til about 3:00 AM, and then we fell right asleep. And today I didn't wake up til 1:30 PM.
I got a letter from my bishop last night.


"Dear Sister ____,

The Bishopric met with you in a Bishopric Disciplinary Council on Sunday, 7 March 2010. As a Bishopric have placed you on Formal Probation for a period of time for conduct contrary to the laws and order of the Church.

You are not to perform the following functions during this period of time:
1. Partake of the Sacrament.
2. Speak or pray in Sacrament Meeting.

We ask you to do the following:
1. Meet weekly with Bishop Martin
2. Attend Church every Sunday
3. You must sign up for and attend an Institute class.
4. Pray Daily- Kneeling & Vocally (in private) and also with roommates
5. Read "The Miracle of Forgiveness"
6. Wear modest clothing (temple worthy)
7. Serve faithfully in your calling
8. Read your Patriarchal Blessing weekly and Scriptures daily.
9. Spend time on the Temple Grounds and at the Visitor's Center
10. Increase your contact with your Grandma

Alexa, we want you to know that we love you. We know that our Father in Heaven loves you. This is a great turning point in your life to study and learn--to strengthen your testimony of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. These guidelines will help you withstand temptation, increase your spiritual strength, and invite the Spirit of the Lord into your life. You will be clean and worthy to receive all the blessings the Lord has in store for you and your family as you follow the Lord's council. Christ's Atonement allows for you to be 100% clean. He does, however require that you forsake your sins and go forward in faith.

Remember Nephi's counsel that you shared with us. The last verse is where your heart is now: "Awake my soul, no longer droop in sin" (2 Nephi 4:27-28). Continue in faith and the Lord will direct your paths.

Sincerely,

(Bishop's signature)

(Bishop's name)


So... I'm not entirely thrilled about tall of this. I've been really back and forth the past few days. I know what I should do, but it seems so easy just to say Screw It and forget the whole thing. But I know I won't be happy if I do that... I also know that I can't just go halfway either. It's all or nothing with this.

Today has been uneventful. Franny and I made cream cheese and caramel-swirled brownies with a graham-cracker crust. Kenny broke the knife on them. He's just a retard. I made white-chocolate popcorn.
And I wonder if I get to see my situation tonight. I miss him. But I have a feeling I won't. Eh, oh well. I'm sure I'll see him tomorrow. At least in rehearsal.
Oh rehearsal.
I really don't want to sell my soul to rehearsals for the rest of this week. They're about to take over my life.