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So I met with the bishop today...
We chatted a bit, and he told me that he's had me on his mind a lot lately. Wondering how I am, wondering what I've been up to, where I've been... He said he was trying to figure out why he loves me so much. He finally said that he thinks it's because we both share that love of the Lord deep in our hearts.
He says it's that same love of the Lord that keeps me coming back to see him. I've had plenty of opportunities to throw it all away. But I keep coming back, because deep down, I love the Lord.
I told him all about Francini's mission farewell, and I told him that I can't get the thought of me serving a mission out of my head since she left.
He beamed.
"I think you would make an incredible missionary."
I asked him if my past would keep me from going. He thought for a bit, and said, "I don't think so. If it's the Lord's will, we can make it happen."
He's going to talk to the stake president this week, and in a couple of weeks when I come back from visiting my family for Thanksgiving, we're going to talk more seriously about it.
Who would have thought.
Alexa Winn, Sister Missionary.
Sister Winn.
....Alexa Winn, going on a mission.
Just like I always said when I was little.

... A mission.

A year and a half, in who knows where... Teaching the Gospel.
Not dating.
Not being in the world.
No messing around...
Growing up.

... a mission.

If I do indeed choose to serve a mission, (if I am allowed to serve a mission, that is) I think what I need to do is move back to Smithfield and find a job or two there. I wouldn't have to pay for rent and only some food. I need to save my money and pay off my student loans. I could take vocal lessons from someone up at Utah State University. I could help Nan with her high school productions. I could audition for and/or help with the community theater show in the fall.
I could take and institute class from Brother Krebs.
It sounds better and better every day that I think of it.
The only things that stop me are:

1. Not living independently, and
2. leaving my roommates and Evie behind.

In other news, it's been a crap week for my family.

1. My Aunt Roxanne was diagnosed with Melanoma and the doctors predict she has a year to live.
2. My second cousin Allison had a premature baby a couple of weeks ago. He passed away earlier this week.

That's all for now. More to come soon.