This one took some thought. Once I weeded out all of the men in my life, tossed away the ex-best friends and threw Sherm out of the picture, I was left with one person.
Here is my disclaimer: I no longer hate this person, we've exchanged our apologies, we are no longer in contact, and I am on good terms with his family.
The one person who managed to turn my life into a complete hell is the one and only Andrew Arbon.
Granted, I'm sure that I ruined his life too. I'd venture to say that if he were given the same writing prompt, he'd have chosen me as the topic as well.
My personal hell:
losing innocence.
burning bridges.
living in fear.
letting precious time slip away.
planning a wedding.
becoming a stubborn person.
pushing away everyone who loves me.
I wasted my entire junior year of high school on this boy. I'm not saying that the first couple of months weren't fantastic. I was practically a part of his family, we were inseparable, I had a cool college boyfriend with a fancy black car...
A lot of the decisions I've made in my more recent life stem from the life experiences I gained in dating Andrew. I'm not proud of my decisions, but as I previously stated- I am who I am today because of how my past has shaped me.
Andrew is now serving a mission in the Paraguay Asuncion mission. He left a year ago at the ripe old age of 21. Better late than never, I suppose.
It's interesting to see where life leads us.
Holy Cow. I still think you should have chosen Sherm. Maybe I will. I am SO GLAD you didn't marry this young man.
ReplyDeleteI think it takes a very strong person to admit and voice bad mistakes, bad decisions, and fear. And then turn your life around and make better life choices. How do you feel now that you've written about this? I bet you feel exilerated? You set a high example for the rest of us to follow. I send very special hugs your way today. Kim Smith
ReplyDeleteWell mom if you go back a few posts to the one titled "forgiveness" I already wrote about Sherm. I had to be creative.
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